Edward,

I know where you are comeing from.

My mind just don't want to get with my body.

I have things wrong with me but I just don't want to admit it.

I have some Brain damage from being on a ventalater for over a month.

I have High Blood pressure.

I have Diabetes that just will not regulate, no matter what meds the dr. puts me on.

I have weak heart mussles from conjestive heart failer from 1999.

My pancreas whats still left of it is the size of a guarter.

So I have to take pills so my food will dijest.

My kidneys are leaking protein like pouring it out of bucket.

I can't remember a day that I haven't woke up with out Pain.

It gets so old but theres nothing I can do about it.

I tryied to get my CDL lic renewed and need a DOT phscycle and

One Dr. Said with the Medicines I take and The health Problems I have.

He wouldn't let me drive a car.

That really hit home.

But my mind just don't get it.

I still don't feel like theres any thing wrong even though there is.

Another thing that gets me is People all around me Keep saying to go and get a Job.

Well If I was able to Work I wouldn't have been Put on disability in the first place.

And another thing.

Every place I tryied to get a job They just wouldn't hire me.

I can't make them hire me.

OK thats enaugh Venting.

Its not that I don't want to its just I REALLY CAN'T.

I gues you can't really understand what I mean unless you in my shoes.

OK that is enaugh