Let me give you some advice right now and listen to it. It sounds like you are psyching yourself out to get pounded by any rifle that you shoot. If you are preparing yourself to get hurt when you shoot a rifle then you're gonna get hurt. Walk up to the rifle and tell yourself that you are going to shoot this rifle and it's not gonna hurt at all and you won't feel a thing. Your state of mind has more to do with perceived recoil than anything else no matter if that recoil is real or just in your mind. If you tell yourself that it's gonna hurt then it's gonna hurt.