Bobcat, I know how you feel. I watched my little sister suffer for 3 1/2 years of organ problems before I watched her pass away. I know that this is very different than suicide but it is in the same ball-park. That happened 4.5 year ago and man, it just never gets easier. I hate to say that but it is true. Everyone told me that my life would go back to normal, but they lied and I won't lie to you. I will pray for your family and for you. If you will pm me I would like to know the names of your family and I can put them up for prayer at our LDS temples. I know that you are not mormon but you would be surprised at how often non-LDS people ask for this and then tell us that it helped. I would like to help you in any way possible.
please pm me or e-mail me at
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Please.
I am truely sorry for you, and I actually suggest going to grief therapy. It helps amazingly.