i thank all of you guys for your empathy. You guys are part of my hunting family and i appericate you being there. I will be attending the funeral on wens. But i did go check on those arrows and look for blood, and i am glad to say it was a clean miss no wounded deer and i was able to find my arrow. As to going back to the woods i will be back, i think i find a lot of comfort there and i can gather my thoughts that way. Thanks guys again.