I understand how you feel. I had a great friend that suddenly passed away. It was one of those things where we talked one week. During which he mentioned he had stomach pain. A short time later he was in the hospital for tests. Then I get a call from his brother asking if I could be a pall bearer. I had a terrible time excepting his death. It just did not seem fair. And I guess we really have no clue as to when our time is up. So I resigned myself to only remember the good times we had and not to dwell on the bad. I wish you and your family the best at times like these.