Would have been easier to never admit that this happened, but I learned a lot from forums like this over the years, and I want to share what I learned this time out in the field. When I started hunting 15+ years ago I didn't have anyone to teach me. Most of what I learned was from magazines and books and cutting my teeth on my own, out in the woods. I started hunting in 1990. I didn't kill a deer until 2002. Took about 4 years off in the middle while in the Army and didn't hunt at all. I knew I'd take a beating but that comes with the territory. Admitting that I am not an expert with a black powder gun doesn't bother me. As I said, I've used it enough to know I can hit my mark, (on paper anyway) reload, break it down, clean, etc. But I think it would take 10 years or more before I get comfortable with dropping powder down a barrel that was just fired. Next time, I'm sure my desire for a deer will drive me to reload and shoot again. And if I screw it up somehow, I will still share that as well.
I applaud your honesty and courage. I hope you not only learned something from hunting that day but also here on this forum!
The lessons that are the most valuable are never the easiest. Good luck!
Live it up! Doug