Welcome to BP. I started with pellets and went to loose powder so I could fine tune my load. I then went to a BP sub call BH209. With my load, the kick is just a whisker more than my 30.06. Im not as big as you. 5'10" 175lbs but the kick doesnt bother me. I do get a little brusing if I shoot 20 or so rounds. A little sore on my next range day but after the first shot, I forget all about it. Have fun.