The truth of the matter is, in the house, you are better off with birdshot, # 7 1/2 or # 8, at close range " unless you live in a mansion", birdshot does a devistating job on human flesh, within ten feet it will make a two inch hole in someone, also, you dont have to worry about killing a loved one in the next room due to over penitration. I do know of the dreams you had, mine is, I had to shoot someone with my 45, I saw the bullet bounce off the guys chest, luckily, I woke up befor he got me!.