You sound very much like me years ago, almost exactly. In my third bow season, I was still looking for my first kill. The second week of the season, I had a nice 16 or 17 inch 8 come through and I choked. The very next weekend I had a 14 or 15 inch wide 6 under my stand for the better part of a half hour. I couldn't do it. Had I not missed that 8, I would have smoked him as soon as he was in range. My advice, get a kill with your bow. With any luck, you can drill doe early and hold out and stick with your instincts for the buck you know is there from your scouting.