RE: "Killing"
We could go into the woods armed with only a camera and "shoot" as many deer as you wanted . . . but would it be as satisfying?
I, too, feel a sense of sadness when I reach a fallen monarch and know that I ended his life intentionally. However, I feel that it's the possession of the animal that seems to make it more satisfying. When friends ask me how I did, a kill always sounds like a success. However, I cannot stand to watch an animal I shot die slowly. That's happened with a couple shots over the years and it almost made me give up hunting. It's gotta be a high percentage shot today that nearly guarantees a quick, humane death, or I keep the arrow on the string.