I reread your post and it brought back feeling of when I lost Tarna. She was a pit bull I had for 12 years. She died of cancer about a year ago. Nothing worse than losing a dog. Dogs are the most loyal creatures in the world. I miss her greatly, but with time the memories will change from hurt to fondness. When she passed I had a lot of trouble dealing with it. Her and another dog(Roxy) were my only family up until I got married. I cant see her as anything else but family. I now look back and can only find fond memories of her. The hurt will pass. I still have Roxy, she is a 14 year old malamute, along with a stray I adopted named Lucky.

Keep your head up.

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