Pick your head up SB. If you hunt long enough it will happen if it hasn't happened already. This is a lesson that a seasoned hunter should take to heart as well a newcomer to the sport. The fact that you feel they way you tells me that you are a true sportsman. If you had the attitude of oh well then it would be a different story. As ethical hunters we do all we can to make a clean and quick kill. Mistakes happen no matter what anyone thinks. You are human. As hard as it maybe try not to lose anymore sleep then you have already. Good luck with the rest of your season.