hey man i dont want to say I know how you feel but I can relate to you...My hero since I can remember has been my dad and he was the toughest man i know but now all he can do is sit on the couch and watch TV cause of an inoperable malignant brain tumor....also just a month ago my buddy on our college baseball team took a line drive off the head while sitting in the dugout and he has had brain surgery also...it helps to talk about so dont bottle it up man...