I have been married for 2 1/2 years and have an 11 mo. old daughter. If my family left me I would be devistated. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Thank you for sharing your pain with us. If it wakes one guy up you did some good today. I don't know if you are a spiritual man but you might try turning to God. "Thy rod andThy staff, they comfort me".