when i killed my first deer i cried i will admit, i understand how you feel, but when you look at it in the long run, when you see the freezer full and can provide your family with food thats inviting. On another note there is something lately that has been really irking me, these wolves, when we "kill" and elk or deer, we put in an effort all around, stalking, sneaking, taking aim, and shooting, we track, we pack it out, we quarter it, bone it out, cook it, eat it. but these wolves, they "sport kill" they attack it and finally it dies and suffers and they leave it thier for the next scavenger.