don't feel bad about flinching with the thought of pulling the trigger. i find myself doing this when i neglect my resonsibilties as a sportsmen to go out shooting every once in a while. infact, i found myself doing that this year with my 12 gauge, it's not that i'm scared of the kick as i'm sure you're not either, it's must the anticipation or excitement about the whole situation. sometimes i have to talk myself through it for the first few shots, but once you got old drop tine in your sights, all of that goes away!!! good luck to you and welcome!!!