WIPE THAT SILLLY GRIN OFF YORU FACE!
NAh just kidding man, Adams, you need not beat yourself up over this, everyone makes mistakes... hell i dont think you are much younger than me but i know it took me a little longer to fix the same mistakes you are making now, this is where you can seperate your self from the average hunter, learn from your mistake, and move on. promis yourself that it wont happen again, and you will be good. i made a VERY bad shot at a deer the third year out, and my Grandpa knew i was beating myself up over it and sat me down and explained all of teh wisdom that he coudl share, and then after all teh storys of about 60+ years of hunting he said he did the same thing when he was 17... but then never made the same mistake again. I try tolive up to that kind of hunter mentality...
sure we are all human, and we make some bad descissions from time to time. its not llike yoru getting PLASTERED every night before you go hunting and shoot anything that moves.
oh by the way.... i cleaned out the extra bedroom, and now i have a sofa in there... when are ya gonna come hunting with me in Illinois?