by23856, Nothing in your post would lead any intellegent person to conclude that you have the intellectual capacity to possible forsee what you claim you did as a reason justifing your post. Your story is completely inconsistant. If you want to come clean just say you lied and didn't lose your release; or that yes, you indeed should practice more, whatever, is the truth. One last piece of advice, don't tout your christain wares, then in the next post say you lied. You have a serious credibilty issue.