You know what MCH, your thought process cracks me up! I am unable to see how your thinking is so tangled!

Oh wait, this might be why, I am focusing on my grades and not focusing on my hormones. I am focusing on being qualified for a career that will support my wife and children without my wife having to work. I am focusing on things that will better prepare me for life. I am preparing for a religious mission for 2 years so that I can be better prepared for life and for having a wife. I am focused on things that will matter a heck of a lot more in the next 2 years on until the day I die, compared to what will affect me for 10 months.

You are way too young to be as "in love" as you are claiming. You are infatuated! You need to look forward to your future more, and not think about a girl who's name in 40 years you won't remember in all probability.