I think the person who needs to shut up is you. You asked us if it was unhealthy for you to take niquill to sleep because a girl you have the hots for who is out of town! (you said she wasn't your girlfriend). Another thing, even if you were going out, how in the world would you expect to live WITH her if you can't stand to live WITHOUT her for a WEEK?!!? Trust me, being with someone 24/7 can be worse than being away from someone for a while. You guys are not going to be together forever, and eventually you will have to live without her FOREVER. Grow up, find something else to pass your time and make you tired besides sitting in front of the computer all day long and worrying about her. You say you hate going to movies alone, well have a friend go with you, something, For GOD's sake GROW UP!!

And by the way, Love has to be mutual, lust is typically one person having the hots for another person - YOU!