i just read you were 14? 14 and your worrying about having sex? you've got a lot of learning to do about dating and women... From personal experience, don't make such a big deal on this one girl because as much as you think she won't ever hurt you, she can and probably will..

"and she aint runnin my life, she is just one of the only things i am living for other than hunting and soccer."

you do need help if you need a girl to "keep you living". What are you gonna do when she's gone and your alone?... like i said you have a lot of learning to do, just don't do anything stupid until then.