we are doing a lot better now... my uncle is taking care of his grandson now and he is going to raise him... it was sadly proven that my cousin was murdered by her boyfriend... we laid her to rest on friday and just remember all of the happy things about her... her boyfriend is in jail awaiting his murder sentance... i've been spending a lot of time in the woods just trying to gather myself.... the second foal of my pregnent mares has dropped and two babies on the farm have been keeping me busier than ever... yesterday i went to visit Ground Zero to say hello to some of the people whose names are forever enscribed on the memorial down there... we put flowers on the gate and spent a good portion there... took us about 3 and a half hours to get to yonkers, NY to see my aunt and another half hour to get to Ground Zero... sad sight but i was glad to be able to revisit it again... i think that the black cloud has finally lifted and things can only get better