Hi guys *hugs* Man i dont know what to say. There's a lot going on and i still think a/b Josh so much. I go to sleep and have dreams about him. Nothin works. Anyways i got enough courage to call him yesterday. (first time we've talked since the break up by the way) He acted as if nothin had happened between us in a way. Which his mom told me that he wanted us to be friends. So anyways i call and tell him happy valentines day and he wishes me the same. We talk a/b our lives for a few min. I told him a/b me having surgery on my mouth thursday and stuff. I asked if he'd like to go out to the movies and i'd pay for him and pick him up and take him home or whatever that I didnt care to do any of it. He said he had plans w/ his friend waymon and asked what i was doin tuesday. I said nothin and he said we can go out to the movies tuesday and he'd say he'd pay for him and i still offered to pay for him as well. then he asked what i was doin today and i said nothin he said he might come up to my school and play ball and i said well i might come and see u and he said ok..then we got off the phone. I as actually surprised he wanted to do somethin w/ me. I just figured he'd say no. But today it snowed really bad so the playin basketball at my school was cancelled so i didnt get to see him today. I dont really know how to act around him. like when we go to the movies tuesday. i mean i'm use to callin him baby and all that but now its like i cant. I just hope everything goes well and nothin bad will happen. I really would like to ask him why we broke up, that i'd like for him to just explain it to me and honestly tell me the truth and if he doesnt want to thats fine, i just completely dont understand on my part. Do u guys think that is a bad idea? anyways please give me some feedback on that. I would like for us to get back together i mean that would be great, but if it doesnt happen than thats fine i at least want us to stay friends and talk to each other.

Washington hunter is there a way i could talk to u on a messanger if u have any. would like to kinda see ur point of view on how u changed and all that is if u dont mind. my aol & yahoo messanger id is Sweetgurl1580 and msn messanger is [email protected] if u have any of those can u add me so i can talk to u if u dont mind.

Sean, i havent gotten any offline messages from u on yahoo...are u sending it to right thing? Sweetgurl1580???? anyways i'll talk to u soon i hope. and i hope all is well w/ u and that u have received my letter.

Thank you everyone for trying to help me get through this it really means a lot to me. God bless *hugs*

Love always,
Jodi