hey girl... i know its kind of hard but i've been through plenty of breakups... don't be so down... first thing you have to realize is that it wasn't your fault... whatever it was it was HIS fault for not realizing what a talented and funloving girl you are... and he's probably right... you can find better... if he didn't think he was providing for you he probably wasn't... 9 months is a long time... just remember the good times you had but don't swoon over them... don't wish for them back or try to get him back... as painful as that is to read it's true... if he broke up with you then more than likely any amount of begging won't get him back and you're better than that anyway... don't put yourself under him... you gotta remember that you are the first person you think about and the most important person and everyone else is in second... you gotta be strong for yourself and confident... all else will come in time and people will love you for your confidence... you will find someone that will respect you and love you and care for you like you deserve... chin up girl... he's out there... and eat something! no sense in making yourself sick over something you didn't do... i hope things get better for ya... if you want to talk or anything just PM me