Sounds like you're in need of some woods therapy. Get out there, do your thing and appreciate what you've got. Funny thing is, I've gotten away from hunting with others and have gone out solo hunting for the last 10 years or so. Not that the prior 35+ years of hunting with family and friends wasn't enjoyable and memorable. I just have really grown to appreciate the solitude and freedom of hunting alone. Does my mind, heart and soul good.
Be well