Been there, done that, had the same feeling but it had to be done. The difference is that mine was a 55 pound yearling that was carrying her right front leg. Best we could tell, she was hit by a vehicle and the knee joint had fused in a half bent position. Part of the bone buildup was sticking out of the skin. Some guys at camp said she needed to be taken out, others said no. If you feel you did the right thing...then you did and that is what counts.