RE: Becoming the hunter I hate.
Well, that was a mouthful! I bet you are glad you got that off your chest. I sometimes feel the same way, however, " life is like a box of chocolates, you don' t know what you are going to get." First of all, there are lots of guys out there who shoot does, including me. I make no apologies to anyone about what I shoot, how I shoot it, or with what caliber. I use what works for me, what makes me happy about my hunting experience, what challanges me, and the rest of the world can like it or lump it.
As far as becoming what you hate, I would have to plead guilty to that sometimes myself. Just try to realize it when it happens and decide not to that time.
And remember, " you never know what you are going to get" : Those dogs may the very thing that runs that big buck by you someday.