Wow. That's enough to make a man cry. But yes I had the same thing...last year,big main frame 12 came in to 19 yards,broadside. At full draw with a tinyyy branch between me and him and in hindsight there's about a 1% chance my arrow would've hit it but I could not get myself to touch off the shot. I waited for 2 minutes at full draw without him moving before having to let down and watch him jog off. Wont soon forget that. Shoulda just shot!!