im the same way......i rather brag about a little buck i killed fair and square...i scouted for..i worked for and i earned.....then a big buck ive never once seen the stand i was going to hunt and never scouted it and everything.....i put alot of hours into my hunting....even if i bag a doe or just a great memory of a great day in the field...it was all worth it.....to me you cant buy a trophy....and basically if you go on a hunt your buying a deer...most have certain gaurentees ect...so to me thats like shopping...when im out there i dont know whats coming next...heck i dont know if anything will ever come....i try to do all the homework and everything but without living htere all the time you never know......not that guided hunts are bad......their just not my style......i rather do it myself.....it gives me so much more.....whatever floats your boat.......