I hear you
daddus1. Confidence in your gear is the name of the game. I've had two clean kills with the .40/200 XTPs & GOEX so the confidence is there for me. You've had two bad experiences, so it's not there for you. It's a funny old world, isn't it?
My second kill with that bullet was an 83 yard neck shot/pass through. Of course, the doe dropped on the spot. But a .22 rimfire might have done the same thing hitting that spot.