we all grieve our own way. My Mother died on Mothers day 2005 from congestive heart failure, and diabetes. My father died a month and 8 days later. A couple days before fathers day he died of lung cancer. My sisters took everything from the house and left me with bills. I know what it is like to feel like your world is ending. It's not. I know it feels like it and the sore will take a long time to heal and there will always be a scab. I am not going to give you any "what you should do's". all I can say is I am sorry and good luck. it will get better. Ron