"I am not taking his death very well"
And you should not be! You have been handed a more than your fair share to start this year. But I know it is not more than you can bear. No matter what, continue the counseling. You need an outlet for your sadness and anger. I consider myself a "tough guy" but counseling has helped me more than once in my life. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. The fact that you are already handling some stuff is an indication you are doing that. My thoughts and prayers are with you.