I would definetly get ahold of a .40 SW or a .357 Sig and shoot them if you can. They are both superior defensive rounds over the nine IMO. They have little to no recoil and more punch. A 9mm just don't have the stopping power that the .40 or .357 Sig have. It's your life your protecting here, make sure you do what you can to make the most of it. Go a little bigger bro.