I lost my grandpa to bone cancer as well and it took me a little while to want to hunt again . We were supposed to go up north so me and him could get a wall hanger . I am going to try to put something together next year and see what all i have to do , and make the trip with a picture of him . Man i miss him he was my bud , When i get my first wall hanger i will have something with his name on the plaque the deer is on . Good luck this season