See if you have a NRA club in your area. If so, check if they offer the NRA Basic Pistol Course. Some training facilities provide the firearm and ammunition for the course in the course fee (usually a 22LR), and others do not. Some may provide the firearm and ammo for an additional fee. If you work with a local club, it is likely the members will be willing for you to try their firearms. There may also be a gun range or store where you can rent a gun to see how it works for you. Get professional training, practice, be safe, use your head and continue your training.