You may want to change releases - at least for a while - in an attempt to re-program your mind to what it is supposed to feel like.

I swore by the little goose but for some people target panic is the natural outcome - I' ve seen this typically amplified by setting a ' hair' trigger - making the situration even worse.

If you can get your hands on one try a carter ' two shot' caliper style release - it has a double sear mechanism & no travel trigger - topped with a 16# spring you just pull & pull & pull trying to get it to go off - - there is no travel in the trigger so the mind doesn' t jump back & forth between aiming & jerking the trigger...

Good luck!