RE: i feel ashamed guys...
I can relate. Had a similar situation. That was the last day I hunted with a gun. Nothing at all against gun hunting or killing deer with a gun. It's just a personal deal. Didn't do it for me anymore so I stopped. The excitement of killing a deer with a bow is the same if not more than day 1 for me. That will never go away. It's just a matter of what satisfies you. You'll figure it out.