Hey we are all here for you man. The best thing you can do is have a good support group around you. If we can do anything for you, just let us know. Loosing weight is tuff. You may want to check out what you really should be eating calorie wise. At that amount of calories your only going to yo-yo. It maybe not enough to really do wht you need. And setting youself up to fail. Going to see a nutritionist really would be one of the best things you could do rightnow. It would be money well spent. Goodluck