I lead two very different lives. My work life and my home life.

Here's my song for work: WARNING, ITS A BIT GRAPHIC, but so is the life I live

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VguMkyPBcMo

Here's mine for my previous life, I know its cheesy, but the lyrics line up so well its scary.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qx10ZrVeKBk


I've made a lot of leaps and bounds. This song pretty much describes how I used to live. I dated my teachers in school, I would take things way to far and push people away, made myself sick to the point where I was hospitalized and forced to gain weight,hated looking at myself, and was always compared to this blonde girl in my class. She was built just like a girl should be and I was ashamed of my broad shoulders and muscular build, so I went to a doctor to try and change that. I backed out of the surgery at the last minute. I was in constant fights with other girls and guys, was in an abusive relationship and just didn't want to be me. I was on anti-depressants, drinking, partying, was reckless with my life and didn't care ifI diedetc. and then I met someone who changed my life and loved me for me, not the wild girl I thought everyone wanted. So when I get up on my soapbox and preach, LISTEN! Cause I know, I've been there.

And here's my anthem now:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L7Fl2yWalH4&feature=related

Sometimes I still feel like my life is drowning me, but in the words of Dory, I've gotta just keep swimming. Its always going to rain, and you've just got to push through and not take the easy way out.