why don't you just re-evaluate how you hunt? Kill only what you need to eat and what you see fit and screw the reputation, who do you need to impress? I hate to see you leave hunting b/c of regret on how you used to do it. Change your perspectives, if you feel like shooting one, then shoot it, if you don't then don't. Ask yourself, do I love hunting? Do I love taking the life of an animal? Remember these two questions are important b/c that's what drives most of us. We all love the woods and outdoors, that's a giving, but we have to actually like hunting down these animals and killing them. there is no other way of putting at this time. You either want to do it or you don't. Either way it's your decision and you will always be welcome back to this brotherhood.