It sounds like you are going about things the right way. So I don' t know what to say as far as advice, aside of one thing. Don' t give Up. Hang in there your luck will change sooner or later. When you do get your bird it will be even that mauch more meaningfull. Another thing is be confident in your self, I can' t explain how it helps but it dose. I know it is easy to get frustrated we have all been there, thats for sure.

Good luck