Hang in there bro and I am very sorry to hear about your dad!!! My dad was my hunting partner for years he taught me from when I was 5 to about 15 and then hehad a bad snow mobile accident and couldn't drawhis recurve anymore so he hung it up and picked up a camera and I started hunting alone. Just as josh said when I get a rut I love to just go out and fling some arrows, because there is just someting special about watching the arrow fly through the air it is magical!!!! Your dad will pull through stronger than ever and youwill get through this time also so hang in there and go let a couple fly!!Walt