Have any of you ever held a loved dog (pet) while it was killed? Did you enjoy that kill?

I kill my chickens to eat them. I don't enjoy killing them but I can't eat them unless I kill them.

I kill deer to eat them. You can't eat something unless you kill it. Does that mean you have enjoy the killing part? Or isthe killingjust necessary so that you can eat them?

If I shoot deer with a paintball they won't die and I can't eat them .