Your a competitor, thats easy to see in allot of your post's. Its sounds like it took the fun out of it for you being the competitor like you are. Its a allot of fun doing what you did but when its not fun whats the sense of doing it then. I'm a competitor as well, I love wining but I found just doing what I love is more fun then competing with someone. The 3-D shoots I go to I could care less anymore on how good I do compared to everyone else. Its just fun doing it now. We have our little competition with the group, its all in good fun.