I admire you for admitting it so soon after it happened. Dang, that' s gotta smart.
Haven' t not loaded my gun but I did try to shoot one last year with the safety on. New gun, safety in front of trigger guard, old one on back; pulled the trigger and MAN did I flinch. Turkey saw me flinch, too rattled to make a good shot. Missed.

Mr. Longbeard, famous last words!!