You are "depressed" about your first bowkill and post it with a thumbsdown marker? What a shame. I say, quit apologizing and be happy for a huge accomplishment. Congratulations are in order, not telling you "it happens".

I remember my first like it was yesterday. One of my biggest thrills ever in the outdoors, and it too, was a bb. I also remember the jack butt at the local archery shop asking me if it was a dog or a deer, LOL.

Sure, QDM is a good thing...but it shouldn't get in the way or truly enjoying your hunting accomplishments.