This morning, I was in the stand at 6:30, waiting on the sun. Perfect weather, and when the sun started to come above the pines, it was gorgeous. Then it hit me.

Last night's Mexican dinner came from the pits of hell. There was no "toughing it out", if you know what I mean. I waited as long as I could, and at about 7:15, I made the painful (literally) decision to go do my business. I left the field and walked about 500 yards up the logging road and made the deposit.

I thought it was over, and was hoping to maybe get lucky and go back to the stand and salvage what was left of the morning. Got settled in, and about 15 minutes later... it hit me again. So, I angrily left the stand again. I was so fed up at the end of round two, I just hopped in my truck and drove up the road back to the house.

I'm sure it's happened toa lot of people, but I really can't get over the disappointment of this morning. I can't help but feel like a complete moron. With that, I hunted again tonight, didn't see anything, which has been the case for about a month. I think I'm actually getting burned out this season, and I hate it. I look forward to the season every year, but lately hunting has turned into more of a chore than a hobby.

In everyday life I have a very bad problem with patience, i.e. traffic, Christmas shopping lines, and so on. I truly think that God is trying to teach me a lesson in patience. Until I learn to relax and take things for what they are, I really don't think that I am going to have a successful hunt. I know I'm getting off-topic from the original post subject, but I just need to vent, I reckon.

Now it's 11:30pm, and I am going to get up in six hours and do it all over again. Why? Because it's a huge passion for me. However, I still find myself being unusually lethargic about the morning hunt. I am usually excited and pumped up about hunting, but it's not happening right now. I won't stop hunting due to a slow season, because that's not what a true sportsman would do, but not seeing a deer for four weeks on what is usually a hugely-productive property is surprisingly taking its toll on me. But, like a lot of things in life; no pain, no gain.