RE: I am heartbroke.
Sorry for your loss Tx
My wifelost three babies in three years. I can tell you that it hits them twice as hard as it hits us. Long after you've healed and moved on, you may need to cut her some extra slack when it haunts her again.
I know first hand about not wanting to try again but I beg you not to do anything permanent. We did and it made the problem worse. Thanks to the marvels of todays medicine and some reversal surgery, we wound up eventually having two more great kids.