my prayers are with you. I had a complete spinal fusion back in 2002 due to scolosis and it was a extremly long painful drawn out process. But I was given the option let it go and death was almost certain or get the surgery done and risk paralysis. Luckily everything worked out. I still have frequent pain but atleast i'm still here. I'm sure everything will work out. I will deffinately be praying for you.