Hey man......dont get too harsh on yerself.....you made a good shot and you did everything in your power to find em......you may think that you killed a deer and now its going to waste but because you could find em, hes makin a tasty meal for all the other critters that gotta eat too......i know its not easy to get over.....i did it to 2 turkeys last year and it was a heartbreaker cause they were both very very large toms and considered takin out the shotgun but i stuck with it and got a wonderful tom........you pull through man....just dont let this getcha down........